One afternoon recently, thumbing through my journal entries on my tablet, I came across a journal entry I wrote during this past episode of depression and thought I’d share it with you.
May 15, 2017
“Heavy heart tonight. It’s so hard to be in that place again.
My thoughts say I’ll feel this way forever. Experience tells me otherwise. And if I forget all else, Jim will remind me, “Give it a few days and you’ll feel better.” (He says this from watching years of my patterns with PMDD).
I find comfort tonight in Psalms 145-147. A few things stick out:
God hears the ravens call. (Psalm 147:9)
He determines the amount of all the stars.(Ps.147:4)
Hope in Him is more important than obvious things we admire. (Ps. 147:10-11)
God is faithful to all His promises (Psalm 145:13). Do I know them? Always and never statements are reserved for Him alone.
When I can’t figure out why I feel so down, when I can’t control my emotions, I will look to the One who determines the stars above me.
When I feel alone, I will call out to the one who hears even ravens and provides for them. Surely He will provide for me.
Jesus, be with me in my depression.”